Urgency

This weekend, (and today too) the weather was so beautiful in that way that only New England fall days can be. Well, I say that not really having lived anywhere else, except Pennsylvania for 4 years in college. I have to say that I wasn't really attuned to nature in college, so it's possible that fall in Pennsylvania is the same, but I wasn't looking.

I always feel a sense of urgency on days like these. The sun is shining, it's 65 degrees, and I ABSOLUTELY must get outside. I'm not an outside person at all, generally, so it's on these kind of days in the fall that I know something's different.

The root of this urgent need to be outside is the sense of wrapping up; it's the end. Summer is over, it's dark at 6:30 now instead of 8:30. Today I drove with my car window down, just because I still can. On days like this, I walk around feeling like I have to experience the rest of fall RIGHT NOW because it'll be gone soon. So I got up early and I went for a walk on the beach. Because I still can. Because it wasn't cold, it wasn't raining. The leaves are changing color and falling, but some are still green.

Soon the leaves will be gone, the trees will be gray, it will be cold and windy. Soon there will be freezing rain and snow. Not today though. Today I'm wearing short sleeves and playing outside because soon short sleeves and outside will not be available.

Carpe diem. Sunny and 65 will be a thing of the past soon enough, so I'm planning to enjoy it today.